Wednesday, February 15, 2006
just when i thought it was all over,
i get an email and it really made my day.
valentine's day, despite being a scam, is one day i cannot get out of my system.
its as if i have this dying need to have to express my singlehood in an even more magnified fashion-
to scream out loud and proud that i'm single and happy (?)
it's pathetic, if you ask me, and i am ashamed of myself sometimes.
it's all wrong, my priorities are all wrong, my vision of how things should be is so wrong.
and the weird thing is, though i had a date (with him, then later with my friends) i still felt very lonely.
so love, in spite of all it's appeal as being something that is provided by someone else,
must come from within as well.
okay, this is all so duh but sometimes you just need to remind yourself of the obvious right?
he's leaving in 5 days.
i'm beginning to freak out a bit.
and the truth is, i'm scared of having to say goodbye because i don't know if i will ever see him again.
it's so damned weird that after 6 months it's all coming to an end-
it's a classic case of expiration dating. and as romantic/passionate as it sounds, it's really not if you're not one to let go.
sigh sigh sigh!
wai * 10:16 PM *